What is the matter with me?

why cant i see things in the right perspective?
why cant i get the negativity out of my mind?

i dont trust any one.. i dont trust my abilities.. (if i have any)

things just .. wait to erupt.. and i feel bad .. why i am i out for a kill? and whom do i want to kill?
what do i get out of it?

why shud i make every one feel bad ? how can i keep my antagonism in control?

i shud try.. i shud.. and i shud focus on here and now on.